It has been a month since I blogged, that’s crazy! I apologize for my absence, so much has happened in my life since then. My little one turned two and I started dating someone.
My son turning two was heartbreaking to me, I don’t want him to grow up anymore. I blinked and an entire year was gone. He had a Cars theme birthday party, Mater and Lightening McQueen galore! He loved it so much. I baked him a vegan vanilla cake with vegan chocolate icing. That was my first time making a cake, and I was terrified. He can’t have dairy, hence why it was vegan. It turned out so good, and he loved it. He ate two slices in one sitting, haha. His party was a success.
Then on October 10th, I was asked to be someones girlfriend. I wasn’t looking for anything, but he found me. We have been talking since January, he was the one I went to on the nights life was too hard to handle. He puts a smile on my face without even having to try, he has saved me from myself more times than he knows. I told him I would say yes under one condition, we had to take things extremely slow and at a pace I was comfortable with. He respects that completely. He asks about my son all the time, and it is so different. No man in my life has cared about my son as much as they care about me. He wants me for me, not for my body or anything else. He tells me I am beautiful even if I don’t believe it. He remembers that my son can not have dairy, he remembers the little things that hold importance to me. He is more of a father to my son than his own blood. Sometimes that hurts to think about, but my son deserves to have a man in his life that cares about him.
I’m not looking for forever, like I said I want to take things slow. I am certainly not looking for a daddy to my son. But, maybe something beautiful will come of this. All I want is happiness and right now I have it.