First and foremost, I apologize for my lack of posts lately. Life has really gotten in the way of me being able to sit down and just blog. But, I am back. I will be trying to do at least one post a night now. Once I get the little man down for bed.
I’m thinking about making posts on books I’ve read, kind of like a book review blog. Would you guys be interested in something like that from me? I don’t think I have many followers, so not like it matters. Haha. It’s just something that crossed my mind, because I am a huge fan of reading. I have a stack of books I’m working on now. I would love to share my opinions and thoughts on them as I finish them. It is something to occupy my mind.
Anyway, it has been nearly a month since I’ve heard from my ex husband. Technically, he can’t even be called that because we aren’t divorced. What do I call him? Anyway, it is supposed to get easier. Everyone keeps telling me I’ll wake up one day and be over him. It isn’t happening that way for me. I wish I could say it was, but it just isn’t. I gave him SIX years of my life. I gave him a child. I gave him everything he ever asked of me. For what? To be left alone with our child.
Please inform me how I’ll wake up one day and not miss him anymore. Tell me I’ll wake up not longing for him to be there beside me. Tell me I won’t grab the phone to call him when something good or bad happens with our son. Tell me I won’t try to email him daily but stop myself. Tell me I won’t long for him to give me a proper apology.
It may happen that way for you, but it isn’t for me. I’m doing the best I can with what little hope I have.